My Week So Far ... !!Intresting Read!!

[Sk&nd4rs G!rlfr!3nd <3]

You are all gonna love my rollercoaster ride of a week ;D .... so far

On Saturday I rode Bobby, a gawjus bay dutch warmblood and it set me on a high for the rest of the day untill ... *dramatic music* ... ii go on msn to talk to my friends, of course everyone here knows Rachel --the one that bullied me last time but I didnt say anything untill it was too late so everything was blamed on me--, I spoke to her on msn relitivly normal, "elo" "hi babe" "wubu2" "nm" ... blah blah blah .... then it comes onto the subject of Lakey -shopping centre- Rachel said she hasnt got any money and shes stressing out over it, ii reply "Oh ii still have 30 GBP left over from my birthday and 200 odd from working in Spain " then ii read that back to myself and relised how it sounded so ii apologised. Thinking she wasnt mad with me she was just on her period or something ii continued the conversation with her. Next thing I know shes attacking me verbally and ii ask how we get into this and she just replies "I dunnah!" ii brush it off as her just being stressed. Later that night ii speak to one of my friends that goes to another school and left me in Primary --havent seen her since she left my primary school-- and Rachel comes on this time i've switched to MSN Live ... the newer version that saves all your chats into logs, shes happily arguing with me while ii tell Sarah --the friend ii havent seen since she left my primary school-- the things that make me chuckle when shes arguing with me and the things that confuse me what shes arguing about. All of a sudden Rachel gets really out of hand and ii just want to say something ii know ii will regret later and she will bring up to all her 'soldiers' and calmly tell her, "listen if your going to be like this then ii think its best we just leave eachother well alone" and she starts having ago at me saying stuff like "oh its all about yoo ...." and then relises her rants nearly finished and i'm on Live she blocks me and signs off. That night Gingerale --another Rachael only ginger and i've known since Primary-- has a go at me because I've apparently reduced Rachel to tears. I was the one in the bath thinking through what had happened and trying to process it and then crying myself to sleep ... but to Gingerale it didnt matter she just wanted to think she was in control and not hear my side of the story!

Sunday was relitivly calm and quiet. I done my english homework and went on msn to speak to people that ACTUALLY like me. I say that because ii thought, "If rachel hates all these qualities about me why is she my apparent best friend? Am ii really that terrible of a person?" going into an emo state of mind by blaming myself for what was happening seeing as ii thought my Head of Year would too like before Later ii slit my wrist purposly in three different places. The third placed one is the worst to show due to me cutting in the same place more than two times.

Monday we kept our distance but ii knew she was having digs at me and ii just felt so alone. ii had Spainish after school & theatre school but ii missed it.

Tuesday ii stuck with Nikita and Jodie --both members of the Rebal&OutcastAssociation along with me the PRESIDENT of the club-- ii informed them both about what was going on betweem me and Rachel although she had already gone around recruiting. ii had Arabic after school and ..... it was either fencing or archery. ii informed Ellie Jodie's cousin about me and Rachels fight and told her to not get involved but to try and keep her away from me.

Wednesday ii done PE which was fitness without Rachel thank god! Jodie and me also figured out that we were cousins due to my nan not knowing any of her relatives apart from two of her siblings and two of her cousins, this also meant ii was cousins with Ellie so we told her. ii ended up tightning my stomach muscles too much and stretching my left side ... which today [glow=red,2,300]KILLS[/glow] ii carnt raise my left arm, cough or laugh without my stomach hurting ... and after school ii had Theatre school and was like three minutes late --this is my theatre school www.yati.org.uk/index.html not joined the agency will join another once graduated theatre school-- My mum took me straight to Lakey after when ii was in my TSU* and got loads of gear for my French Trip ;D

Thursday, is today ... i've had a mixed day really. First lesson ii started to write my english coursework, done two paragraphs already although ii need to do about 2-5 pages xD. Second lesson my teacher decide to spring on us a GCSE exam, without revision, due to the way we get examined changing and he wanted us to get the best possible results so he made us do the exam then we'll have to do the practical exam which is what the GSCE exams will be changing to. At break ii decided to go out on a high note and ii spotted Nikita walking over to me and thought ii would meet her half way. My ex BF informs me that when ii was getting the back flap of his blazer down from being caught on his back that ii touched his arse ii just reply "Oh did ii!" and walk off with Nikita and say to her "another useless piece of information ii didnt need to know ..." and she finished my sentence xD. Alex, a boy that always goes to my form in the morning, walks past me and ii say to Nikita "i'm gonna winde up Alex and get a hug from him." and then go and ask him for a hug so he begins to back away. ii start chasing him for a hug about four times before Rachel and five other people come over to me and start having a go. ii then spotted Alex again and he's hurt his ankle so ii thought ii would go and chase him up again for a hug. .... caught him but no hug! ii then walked back to Nikita because ii left my bag there and Rachel & crew are still there when all ii want to do is eat, ii then talk to Molly --one of the members in Rachels crew and seemingly calmest person-- answering her about the wrong comments and incorrect information ii was just supposed to own up to, ii fight back calmer then them all! Rachel and me then get into an argument about what SHE had made up ... now she was only making me look like the bad guy so she could look like the victim but it really didnt! and as ii was arguing with her others kept interupting. They eventually all got bored of it but ii knew TWO people that wernt ..... Rachel & Kayleigh. I'd had enough, not only had they picked on me FAR TOO OFTEN but they had began to start on my club members Jodie & Nikita. ii marched --pretty much-- straight to my head of house and was almost crying; ii was litrally fighting back the tears. My head of house had a class so ii had to wait outside her room, looked like ii had been sent out, and my supporters went to Maths --boooo HISSSS-- getting rid of Jodie & Nikita ii was so shakey that ii had to stand against the wall because ii felt like my legs were about to collapse beneath me! ii talked to my head of house about it and she said she would deal with it and would talk to my Head of Year that knows us better --the same head of year that let Rachel think she could get away with bullying me last time!!!-- she then asked if ii wanted to go to Maths although ii was shakey and tears were streaming down my face. She told me that ii would be the stronger person to face them and show them that ii wasnt scared and also told me that she would write in my note to my maths teacher "brooke has been with me. please keep an eye on rachel and brooke." so ii nodded and went on my way with a letter being caught by my French Teacher and was talking to her up until the library where ii had to walk to Maths on my own acting strong --when ii really felt vunerable and weak-- so to help me ii just kept thinking of a song that always makes me angry and strong ... ii managed to look both Rachel & Amie in the eyes and turn my nose up at both of them! It felt good and ii knew that they really felt bad because ii didnt her one *cough* out of them and they didnt look at me ... especially not in the eye. When Kat asked me where ii was ii just simply said, "medical ... yeah because my stomach and sides really hurt" she assumed and ii went along with it seeing as ii really had hurt my side and stomach. French ii got in an argument with the boy behind me cause he kept purposly kicking my chair and because my sides and slightly my back hurt like hell ii screamed at him and she stopped even though he was acting all hard cause his mates .... ii could smell the fear, to be truthful though ii had given him quite a stink eye After that came home at one because it is half day ;D ii got plenty of food to eat on the way home too xD Well wasnt it brave of Kayleigh and Amie to start winding me up on msn --two members of Rachels crew-- wow do ii really care if your boobs are bigger .... erm NO !! wow do ii really give a rats arse about how bloody vain you are .... erm NO !!! your a pair posers and wannabes .... now go cry about it, so what if i'm emo its got nothing to do with you nosey biatches. Yersh readers they have angered me and because i'm tired emotionally i've got a short fuse ...... just look out for the phrase, "ii punched Kayleigh and slapped Amie round the face ..." for tomorrow cause ii promise you that there is a high probability it will be happening and written down

thats just whats happened so far. dont forget ii have tomorrow in school, probly wont be on msn Saturday and Sunday i'll be in france but for the trip ii know plenty of action will unfold although i'm scared as to what

[Sk&nd4rs G!rlfr!3nd <3]

So you might all want to hear whats happened today

Friday

[/u], Well its been kinda brilliant! I talked with Molly and I think she's inbetween and not sure who to believe in this argument, but still doesnt excuse her for getting involved ii geuss someone ii know and goes my school went on Sunshine River where this is originally posted to see this and left a comment in the Cbox which ii had to translate LOL. well the link to this thread also went around to the crew of bullies involved, mistake on my part, ii geuss ii wrote alot for Thursday and ii dont regret one word of it especially where ii vented my anger, it just needed to be in some way and it helped because ii actually didnt physically attack them!! I'm proud of myself, the old me so would have given them a black eye and phat lip but ii think this just shows how much i've changed Anyways... ii wanted to know what was going on about this bullying situation getting sorted and attempted to find my Head of House, well ii couldnt, so ii went to one of the schools mentors and ii gave her all the information to what was going on & what ii overheard her say in Geography about my Head of House and she tuted alot LOL. Also had a student peer mentor that was listening and was like, "I cant believe your getting bullied .... again!" after ii told her how many times before ... you all know. Well that was during Lunch, cause we came in at eleven and thus had much more of a half day then yesterday... the student peer mentor --Grace-- ii knew anyway, she then took me to my form and Nikita --she was with me throughout the chat and had some input-- when we went to go to form; They were all lined up against the walls, both sides! They gave me evils and ii looked them in the eyes, the ones ii could, and gave them straight back... Grace heard Kayleigh say --as did ii-- "Yeah i'll bang you out!" when she was the main one to give me evils ... spot of news ii dont back down from anything because of a dirty look =_= Grace then said "ergh no you wont i'll just slap you silly little girl!" and made me and Nikita laugh which was hard for me seeing as ii was shaking AGAIN!!! When we went back to form Nikita's class had gone in myine hadnt so ii just stod outside waiting for like five minutes, then when we went in we were aloud to have free time seeing as it was Friday so everyone went on the computers. Emily & Hollie a pair of year elevens in my form and the people ii most have in common with came and sat next to me because their comps didnt work the spare one next to me did so Hollie logged on and started to play a game while me and Emily had a little chat kinda My phone started to vibrate --its on silent for school-- and ii thought it was just a text but it kept vibrating so ii thought it was my mum calling for no reason and looked ... it was a number ii didnt know ... so ii waited a little longer for them to hang up but they didnt so ii answered with no hello and ii could hear Kayleigh and Amie & Rachel --not dusty xD-- ii hung up immediatly after. Emily asked who it was and ii answered, "A bully" she exclaimed rather half heartadly, "What" so ii then said comicly, "A bully .... B-U-double L- Y" and then we got into a conversation on who it was when ii got a text message.... ii looked at it, it was the same number that called, when ii read it it had said "U wil die" and Grace had told me to come and tell her if anything else happened so ii showed Emily & Hollie and they started flipping out, "If they call again give me the phone I'm in a mood for an argument!" said Emily and Hollie voiced against it saying, "No dont. I want to call them or if they call you again give me the phone and I'll say to them that; if they continue that further action will be taken against them." ii was like oh Hollie dont you sound smart and then she said the smartest thing ... go and speak to the peer mentor and i'll ask if ii can say what ii said ii would. In which we ran into Grace because she was coming to ask if ii had them in any of my lessons next. Maths. I showed Grace and she went "Right we have to go tell --school peer mentor--" and we went on a hunt to find her ... went to her office when another girl came to talk to her too about being bullied because she hung around with a girl ... stupid reason as usual for bullies. We stod their, Me Hollie Emily Grace and this girl, Emily left and Hollie stayed with me, we then went to the other school peer mentor and she didnt know where she was so we stod their talking about this other girl and then out of nowhere we find the peer mentor we was looking for behind Hollie Grace told her that ii had recieved this text during form and a call and ii showed her which then she wrote down the number and the message. She told us three to go tell my Head of House, so she saw Grace outside her door and signaled '1 min' in which ii said, "Yeah more like half an hour like yesterday ..." which was about right untill she opened the door LOL. ii told Grace it had gotten so bad ii had self harmed. Shortly after My Head of House came out and starting speaking to us and ii showed her the text message and she told me to go see the assistant head, she spoke to us for a long while in her jittery manner which was rather amusing xP when she saw the text her face went serious and rather fearful. She told me not to go home now, even though she wanted me too, she wanted to find out who had text me it. ii already had a hunch! While she was writing a note to the teachers to listen out for any mobiles going off that to take note onto who's mobile it was anyway ii then told Grace that the only persons number ii didnt have out of all that lot was Kayleighs she informed her and then she wrote on the end of the note, "especially Kayleigh Barrat??" so she then wanted me to go home ten minutes early so ii had time to walk to the bus stop and get home safe so she couldnt do anything. I was going to switch busses at Tesco --supermarket--. Grace took me to lesson and showed miss the note and said something to her that ii didnt hear, ii just smiled weakly and nodded to Grace. Half way through maths Kurtis --a mophead boy in my class-- said, "Oh go on Brooke Bang Jacob!" but in a funny way ... plus the way he punched his hand was really jokes! After ii heard Amie mutter, "Yeah go on Brooke I'd like to see you bang me!" then after a dirty look she gave me she mumbled/muttered "B*tch" in which ii took note of it mentally and on an old letter. Grace came to see if i'd left the lesson when it was five to three and tapped me on the shoulder and we went to my second head which ii gave the note to. She figured that something was to happen after school PLUS ii heard Rachel ask if Amie wanted to go round so ii was like ... well ii really dont want to get in a fight because then my parents will find out!! One thing ii didnt want to happen more then anything. My mum wouldnt let me go on the French Trip otherwise ... shes overprotective like that . ii ended up getting driven to Tesco by my second head xD ii got on the wrong bus but ended up catching the right one, ii had to run accross a main bluddy road xD xP but ii got home safe ;D

still remember the day isnt over ... and hours make a difference ... especially in my weeks [/center][/color]